Each time this deep feeling of pain, loneliness...comes, i just can't hold back my tears anymore. *I'm searching for my other half(>.<)* Maybe it might just be more than enough to stop and take away this Fucking Pain...Growing inside of me..The same feeling i always feel... the same unbearable pain... My heart hurts more and more each day... i am lost, no one to turn to...no where to hide.Finding things to do to avoid this pain..the hatred that runs through my veinsMaybe...just maybe i'm feeling this pain because i probably have no one to share with.. or at least truly understands my pain and Loneliness.....The lack of friendship relations during childhood and adolescence, or the physical absence of meaningful people around me are causes for loneliness, depression....
People around me always say that they understand and came upon this feel before... but What The hell Do They KNOW!!!!
Do they even know, how it feels to be always alone all their FREAKING Life.. Being Misunderstood all the time... Being outcasted all the time, all even being blamed for something you didn't do...
Sometimes i just wish i was dead...
Sometimes i just wish that i would be knock down at any moment by a car,bus or even by a speeding train.. even now i wish that it would just come true...
i don't think anyone will even know that i was dead.
I didn't even got to take my Exam because of my grandma passing...
i tried to explain but no one listen..
No one would want to listen to a nobody like me...
until now...this pain never seems to fade away.
it feels that every Mistake i made or do, even by accident or NOT
this pain gets stronger... each second, each moment, each day...
Honestly, the only thing that is keeping me on a Positive Mind/Track, is a Special* someone who is very important to me..................................
< Interest >
Cosplaying, Playing the Piano/Guitar, Sleeping, Inline/Street Skating~
< Favorite Music >
Techno, Rock, Rap, E-mo, Pop, R&B, Blues, Alternative & Punk, Classic Rock, Hard Rock, Religious, Inspirational and SoundTracks.
< Birthday >
20 July 1991
< Contact Information >
Email: holy_sparrow@hotmail.com
Mobile Number: 97500611
Current Address: Hougang Ave 2, Blk 710, #05-125
< Hates >
I've always hated this place.
But it has always been on my mind.
It wasn't like this back then.
It wasn't a place like this.
Maybe it means that you can't cover this place up.
No matter how beautiful the flowers bloom.People will blow it away once again.
But this scenery... this scenery... I hate it even more.
< Wishes >
Give me a weapon of mass destruction and I'll make sure nothing will be left in the world...
< History >
February 2009
May 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
April 2010
July 2010
< Others >
Maggie Chui
Miyuki
Landon Lim
Yukimura Sanada
Fadzli Shah
Mayii
Xuri
Nicholas Choy
Okuno-Mike
AiiKi
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< Credits >
illusionskeeper
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