I feel as if I have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and I'm going about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times I would get depressed and I would try to compensate for my 'missed opportunities' by living my life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way I feel that I can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that I am right.
Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, I am at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What I really need is someone who can be close to me and to listen to what I have to say.
I am a perfectionist in everything that I put my hand to. I am demanding and very exacting in the standards that I apply to my choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps I demand too much from people. That perfection I seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist.
Nobody seems to understand me at this moment for everything I suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as I would like it to be - I feel that I am being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from me and that I am being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. I consider myself being denied the appreciation essential to my well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing I can do about it. I feel that whatever I try to do to change the situation, I am getting nowhere fast. I would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.
The tensions that I am trying to cope with are a result of conditions which are really beyond my control. As a consequence of this almost impossible situation and not being able to get my own way, I am subjected to frustration and almost ungovernable anger. I am trying to remedy the situation but the stress that I am experiencing is making the situation even worse. I feel so inadequate that I am not quite sure which way to turn. A good suggestion would to be to try to relieve the stress and anxiety by participating in some very active physical activity which will relieve my tension.
I'm still awake, and its currently 4.04 am right now~
Why am i awake?
Cause i am damn hungry & thirsty~
Worst thing is that, i ran out of cashT~T
I hate my life~ it really sucks, when you see others having so much fun out there...
I hate this feelings of emptiness
Emptiness/Loneliness~ Feelings that i can't explain in mere words
3 simple words, can be really hard to say~
Oh well... not like i am going to say it^^
hehe~XD
Love is eternal. There are inspired messages, but they are temporary; there are gifts of speaking in strange tongues, but they will cease; there is knowledge, but it will pass.
For our gifts of knowledge and of inspired messages are only partial; but when what is perfect comes, then what is partial will disappear.
The piano is a musical instrument which is played by means of a keyboard. Widely used in Western music for solo performance, ensemble use, chamber music, and accompaniment, the piano is also very popular as an aid to composing and rehearsal.
Although not portable and often expensive, the piano's versatility and ubiquity have made it one of the most familiar musical instruments.
Pressing a key on the piano's keyboard causes a felt covered hammer to strike steel strings. The hammers rebound, allowing the strings to continue vibrating at their resonant frequency.
These vibrations are transmitted through a bridge to a sounding board that couples the acoustic energy to the air so that it can be heard as sound.
When the key is released, a damper stops the string's vibration. Pianos are sometimes classified as both a percussion and a stringed instrument.
I don't want/wish to let her know that i like/love her, I am satisfied to be able to at least stand next to her... even if it is at a friend level to her~ she doesn't have to know.
I am really satisfied to at least have the chance to still be able to communicate with her.
Love is patient & kind; It is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth.
Love never gives up; and its faith, hope, & patience never fail.
Should i tell her that i love her?~
Should i let her know how i feel about her?~
Should i just stop thinking about her?~
Should i stop having feelings for her?~
Honest, I don't know anymore....
If i can't even take care of myself properly, how am i gonna be able to take care of her?!
I may be able to speak the languages of human beings and even of angels, but if I have no love, my speech is no more than a noisy gong or a clanging bell.
I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have all the faith needed to move mountains - but if i have no love, i am nothing.
I may give away everything I have, and even give up my body to be burned - but if I have no love, this does me no good.
After Session, had lunch with my parents
After lunch, my parents went to visit my Grandmother cause she was sick~
I decided not to follow my parents, so i went home
Reached home around 1.37pm, went to rest for awhile
Woke up around 3.45pm, then took a bathe again
After bathe, decided to watch some animes on the internet at http://www.animeseason.com/
Stopped watching at about 6.15pm
Decided to play the piano^^
Practiced the song "Fall for you" but still made a lot of
< Interest >
Cosplaying, Playing the Piano/Guitar, Sleeping, Inline/Street Skating~
< Favorite Music >
Techno, Rock, Rap, E-mo, Pop, R&B, Blues, Alternative & Punk, Classic Rock, Hard Rock, Religious, Inspirational and SoundTracks.
< Birthday >
20 July 1991
< Contact Information >
Email: holy_sparrow@hotmail.com
Mobile Number: 97500611
Current Address: Hougang Ave 2, Blk 710, #05-125
< Hates >
I've always hated this place.
But it has always been on my mind.
It wasn't like this back then.
It wasn't a place like this.
Maybe it means that you can't cover this place up.
No matter how beautiful the flowers bloom.People will blow it away once again.
But this scenery... this scenery... I hate it even more.
< Wishes >
Give me a weapon of mass destruction and I'll make sure nothing will be left in the world...
< History >
February 2009
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November 2009
April 2010
July 2010
< Others >
Maggie Chui
Miyuki
Landon Lim
Yukimura Sanada
Fadzli Shah
Mayii
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Nicholas Choy
Okuno-Mike
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illusionskeeper
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